Reflection Confession: Held Hostage?

Recently I was listening to a podcast on one of my long walks (unfortunately I can't remember what the name of the podcast was), and a comment stood out to me that I was a little bit shocked by, but at the same time resonated with me.

It was something along the lines of: 

Rejecting true thoughts that no longer serve us. So we are not held hostage by them. 

The conversation was about how to overcome your own ego and 'cannot do' attitude. Sometimes we become so attached to something that may be TRUE that we can not see beyond it...so much so that it may becomes debilitating. 

Reflection Confession:

Am I holding on to anything that although may be true, I am being held hostage by? Although not a thought, the first thing that popped in my mind was my Asthma. 

I was diagnosed with asthma probably around the time I was 8 give or take a year or two. I don't remember ever being athletic nor did I have much of a desire to be athletic. I did attempt gymnastics, volleyball and cheerleading...each 'failing' with my personally perceived lack of flexibility, pep, outgoing-ness and coordination. (Yes, I was that girl that ran away from the volleyball coming at me v.s. trying to hit it across the net).

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Not knowing what came first - my asthma or my non-athletic self...my excuse quickly became 'I have asthma so I can't do that'. Replace 'that' with running, swimming, volleyball, group sports, work sport outings, going to a gym....you name it. Not only did I not do any type of sport activity, I was nervous to be a spectator because I felt inadequate not knowing the rules because I had never played. 

For the longest time when I first decided to join a gym, I was nervous about attending any of the group classes for fear that my asthma would flare up or I would be that person who has no idea what they are doing......this stopped me from attending group yoga classes initially too!  

I can't exactly remember the specific day I decided to join a group class at a gym, but I remember getting to the point of thinking I'm an adult, who cares what someone else may think of me. (but really...it was what I would think of myself...ironically). Just go for it! Break away from your own hostage thinking...the only person it is hurting is yourself! The world of possibilities is at your doorstep!

So true....I never would have thought then that I would now be a yoga teacher. Change is always present and always possible.